Good news! My internal organs are all intact and perfectly normal. I went in yesterday morning to get the CT scan, and heard back from my doctor yesterday afternoon. Can you imagine the relief? My stomach certainly can, as I believe I even heard it un-knot a little after hearing the news. AND, I got my laptop back yesterday. The convergence of closure to several stressful things occurred yesterday, and now I feel a little mentally hung-over. In the midst of all of this, Jon heard that his colleague's husband unexpectedly passed away. In an instant, I suddenly felt guilty for getting so stressed out over my insignificant problems. My heart goes out to this woman, who was out here in Denver at meetings when the whole thing happened. I honestly think I would lose my shit if that happened to me. How do you pick yourself up after something devastating like that? And to think, I had my panties in a bunch about having my laptop in repair for a few days...
First, I'm glad you're doctor cleared you and second, I'm glad you have your lap top back.
ReplyDeleteWhen I hear these types of things, like with Jon's friends husband, I really try hard to remember it's all the little things that get to us. The one or two big things we can manage. Our scale of 1-10 of what we can handle is different than anyone else's. Your 10 may be another's 2. I am so sorry for the friend and will remember them in my prayers tonight.
Good to have you back :)
Sharon
I think it's normal to be concerned for your own family first; then feel guilty later.
ReplyDeleteExample: My whole inner family just had the stomach flu. I've been worried about us. It was like Domino's - it hit 3 of us at different times. On Feb 2 my youngest nephew goes in to get lower jaw surgery. He has Trisomy 18. On Feb 21 my dad has heart surgery to fix his atrial fibrillation. I'm worried about everyone else, but the stomach flu was happening in the present. It's hard to not feel guilty. In the end, it's just the way things happen.
Sharon - thanks for your kind words. And I totally agree with your handleness capacity scale. It's so easy to get pissed off about the little things that go on in a day, and I'm trying very hard to let those things go. Not quite there yet, though!
ReplyDeleteAlissa - Ugh. I am completely terrified of us getting the stomach flu, it's my worst nightmare. But isn't it funny how so much can go on ALL at the same time? I guess we really are given just as much as we can handle, right?
Glad your organs are o.k., my friend!
ReplyDeleteThanks, R!
ReplyDeleteIt's good to know that your organs are ok! It's these things which make us realize the many other things we should be thankful for. We definitely shouldn't sweat the small stuff.
ReplyDeleteThanks! I know, it really does put things in perspective.
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