I finally received a DVD of the last show I performed. The one that felt really good. The same one I watched a snippet of a few weeks ago and felt discouraged.
So, I revisited it again yesterday afternoon. With some distance. And it wasn’t that bad! There were some things I noticed that I need to work on (What’s with the sickled foot in arabesque? This white girl can’t jump! Why are my shoulders hunched over like I’m going to hurl a fur ball?) but there were also some things that I thought “that ain’t half bad!” I look more solid than I thought I would. Energized. Not so old. All good things.
As I’m watching it, Mr. B siddles over and checks it out. He asked me when I started dancing (at the age of four, I answer, which for those that are curious, was almost 34 years ago. Gulp!). Then he makes a comment about how I’m still dancing. Then drops the bomb…”Mommy? When are you going to do another job?”
Good question, kid.
I suddenly felt the need to passionately come to the defense of my career choice. To a FIVE YEAR OLD, mind you. All he asked was a simple question. Yet, would he ask this same thing of his father? Or if I was a doctor? While I realize that my career is seen by most as a Hobby, it has been my livelihood for as long as I can remember. It is just as much a part of who I am as who my parents are, where I was born, and the color of my eyes. How can I just give this up?
OR, is it time to “grow up” and get a real job?
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“Growing Up” means having the HUTZPAH to do what you’re really passionate about and want to do in life no matter the obstacles, no matter the nay sayers. Dance until the world ends…
Once again, you’ve made a good point. How did you get so freakin’ wise? Wait. Isn’t the world ending 10.21.11?
Don’t give up dancing…one of these days your little man is going to say to his friends…my mom is so cool, she dances!
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Thanks, Becky Jane
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That’s a great way to look at it, Becky. Thanks for the reminder!
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I agree with Becky that he will think it’s cool that you dance. Have a great weekend. (visiting from Voiceboks)
Hi Stephanie - I DO think that he finds it kind of neat, and has some friends coming with him to my next show. But I also agree with you that I probably over reacted. It’s just funny to me that kids can unconsciously pick up on what we’re already feeling. Thanks for visiting!
In my best Dory (of Nemo) voice, I’d like to tell you to “Just keep dancing…just keep dancing!”
Pepperrific - That’s too funny…I CONSTANTLY find myself singing this in rehearsal all the time. I loves me some Dory…